Monday, May 14, 2007
Blah..
Yesterday was Mother's Day, and while I love my mother with all my heart, I didn't have that great of a day. I haven't posted this here, but I guess I should since my family knows. Ryan and I are trying to have a baby. For the last 6 months we have been trying and it has been very hard. Even when we think we time it perfectly (like last month), nothing happens.
Also, the fact that I have gotten sick the last cycle and this cycle means that instead of having my period (and ovulating), thus giving me another chance to try every 35 days, I have to wait every 70 days. It has just been very hard lately, especially since Ryan's cousin is about to have her baby, and that's all anyone can talk about. It really hurts when his family (that knows we are TTC and knows we are having a hard time) constantly talk about this stuff in front of me. And the other day when I went to Body World, Martina, whom I haven't even known a year, is kind enough to tell me how to get around the fetus exhibit so it won't bother me, and yet his family doesn't even care.
This has just been really hard on me the last few months, especially considering all my mom had to do was look at somebody when she wanted to get pg and she was; yet here I am, six months and The Jonas Method, 'Just let it Happen' method, and charting my BBT method all used and nothing works. Nobody seems to understand just how badly I want to have a child; not even my parents or Ryan.
And just an FYI - when somebody is trying to have a baby, please don't tell them that it will happen 'Someday', because sometimes it doesn't and we really don't want to hear that. We just want a few kind words, like 'I'm sorry that you're having a hard time', or even just a hug if you don't know what to say.
Also, the fact that I have gotten sick the last cycle and this cycle means that instead of having my period (and ovulating), thus giving me another chance to try every 35 days, I have to wait every 70 days. It has just been very hard lately, especially since Ryan's cousin is about to have her baby, and that's all anyone can talk about. It really hurts when his family (that knows we are TTC and knows we are having a hard time) constantly talk about this stuff in front of me. And the other day when I went to Body World, Martina, whom I haven't even known a year, is kind enough to tell me how to get around the fetus exhibit so it won't bother me, and yet his family doesn't even care.
This has just been really hard on me the last few months, especially considering all my mom had to do was look at somebody when she wanted to get pg and she was; yet here I am, six months and The Jonas Method, 'Just let it Happen' method, and charting my BBT method all used and nothing works. Nobody seems to understand just how badly I want to have a child; not even my parents or Ryan.
And just an FYI - when somebody is trying to have a baby, please don't tell them that it will happen 'Someday', because sometimes it doesn't and we really don't want to hear that. We just want a few kind words, like 'I'm sorry that you're having a hard time', or even just a hug if you don't know what to say.
Labels: mothers day, ttc
// posted by Lacey @ 11:08 AM 
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