Monday, March 10, 2008
From one topic to the next..
I am just jumping from one topic to the next.
I hate the 'baby blues'. I hate them being called that. It normally kicks in 2-4 days after giving birth and lasts up to a month. WTF. The reason I hate them being called that is because my baby is the only thing that makes me happy right now. I know it is all of the extra hormones that are still in me with no place to go right now, but I am just stressed and upset beyond reason.
I have a to-do list two pages long, my house is dirty, I have math homework, a math review and a math test to study for as well as a speech outline and manuscript to write for my 'Demonstration' topic, but I don't have a demonstration topic because everything I've suggested gets turned down.
She let a student do her demonstration speech on how to put in extensions in her class last semester, but when I suggest how to properly change and swaddle a baby I get turned down because "Though the females in class would probably be interested in swaddling techniques, the males might not." And the males in your class last semester enjoyed learning how put in extensions?! I also suggested how to make an embroidered appliqué burp cloth/patch and got no response, so as of yet that is what I am doing my speech on. I e-mailed her early Friday and never got a response so I better not get told no. If she does, all I have left is how to properly apply self-tanner and that might be a 'girly' topic too - who knows. (By the way, if you can think of a 'How to' demonstration topic that would take roughly 5 minutes, let me know!)
I'm also upset at my body. I have no idea how much I weigh now, as I haven't been on a scale since the Friday before I was induced, and then I was 158. I want to get down to 120 and baby was 7lbs, so roughly 30 lbs is what I have to lose. I didn't get any stretch marks this pregnancy, lucky for me, but now my tummy is just.. gross. If you've ever had a baby you know what I mean. It is just .. there. Not firm, no muscle at all, and just kind of jiggles. :(
Plus my milk came in and my breasts hurt like you wouldn't believe. Luckily I have yet to have leakage as I've kept them bound up pretty tight, away from stimulation and hot water, so I'm hoping I can make the milk go away (and stay away)
Okay. Enough whining I guess. I'm going to go hold my baby and take a nap. I'll leave you with a cute shot I got of him yesterday.
I hate the 'baby blues'. I hate them being called that. It normally kicks in 2-4 days after giving birth and lasts up to a month. WTF. The reason I hate them being called that is because my baby is the only thing that makes me happy right now. I know it is all of the extra hormones that are still in me with no place to go right now, but I am just stressed and upset beyond reason.
I have a to-do list two pages long, my house is dirty, I have math homework, a math review and a math test to study for as well as a speech outline and manuscript to write for my 'Demonstration' topic, but I don't have a demonstration topic because everything I've suggested gets turned down.
She let a student do her demonstration speech on how to put in extensions in her class last semester, but when I suggest how to properly change and swaddle a baby I get turned down because "Though the females in class would probably be interested in swaddling techniques, the males might not." And the males in your class last semester enjoyed learning how put in extensions?! I also suggested how to make an embroidered appliqué burp cloth/patch and got no response, so as of yet that is what I am doing my speech on. I e-mailed her early Friday and never got a response so I better not get told no. If she does, all I have left is how to properly apply self-tanner and that might be a 'girly' topic too - who knows. (By the way, if you can think of a 'How to' demonstration topic that would take roughly 5 minutes, let me know!)
I'm also upset at my body. I have no idea how much I weigh now, as I haven't been on a scale since the Friday before I was induced, and then I was 158. I want to get down to 120 and baby was 7lbs, so roughly 30 lbs is what I have to lose. I didn't get any stretch marks this pregnancy, lucky for me, but now my tummy is just.. gross. If you've ever had a baby you know what I mean. It is just .. there. Not firm, no muscle at all, and just kind of jiggles. :(
Plus my milk came in and my breasts hurt like you wouldn't believe. Luckily I have yet to have leakage as I've kept them bound up pretty tight, away from stimulation and hot water, so I'm hoping I can make the milk go away (and stay away)
Okay. Enough whining I guess. I'm going to go hold my baby and take a nap. I'll leave you with a cute shot I got of him yesterday.
Labels: baby, baby blues, baby j, pics, stress, vent
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Seconds on stress, anyone? I have more than enough to go around!
I'm dealing with a lot right now.
I have school, 5 classes, yes my own fault but some of them require more work than previous classes. I'm not kidding when I say I have an assignment due everyday, Monday through Friday, and sometimes on Saturday and Sunday.
My English class alone began with one assignment each day M-F for the first 2 months, and has since lightened up to only 3 assignments due a week. though I have a 'Reading quiz' which isn't really a quiz because, though I have no idea what it is, it says choose a topic for my final paper before attempting the quiz. that sounds like an essay more than a quiz. I also have a paper due, a quiz, two discussion boards, responses to 3 discussion boards to at least two people with at least 100 words, and a final paper (not the first one stated) due.
My HR class, though with the least amount of assignments, is the one I'm most worried about, as the tests are harder than heck to ace. the average is mid 70's. I, luckily, got an 88 on this last test, though only a 76 on the test before that. After 5 attempts. I have aced all of the assignments due in the class (and finished them early, also), but the tests are the hardest and I have 2 left to complete in order to finish this class.
My two Business Management classes aren't that hard - I plan on finishing all but the last project (evaluation) in my co-op class this week, and my other business class just irritates me because of the length of the assignments. I'm not kidding when I say my 'homework' is normally 6 or 7 (typed) pages, single spaced. sure, we don't have a test - but I would rather have a test over every chapter in the book than the homework we have over every chapter.
My drama class isn't that bad, and I have a 93 in it right now, but the assignments aren't posted until 3 or 4 days in advance, which I hate. If I have an easy (easier?) class, I like to work a little ahead so I'm not so bogged down with assignments in every class on the same day. I can take out one or two assignments early so I only have one or two a day.
Also, I'm really nervous about the baby. Don't get me wrong, I love her and want her and can't wait until she's here, but I was thinking of how much stuff I have to accomplish and do before she gets here. Our apartment is tiny (500sqft) and I don't know where I'm going to stash all my baby shower stuff since we only move two weeks before my due date! Plus I need to tour hospitals, find a new OBGYN (I don't like my current one at all), decide on room layout, get crib bedding, crib, all that stuff, etc, decide if I'll breastfeed or formula feed, decide if I need to apply for WIC or not (probably), train the dog not to jump on me, train the cat to stay out of the bassinet, ETC! I am swamped. Plus, all the irrational fears first time moms have over whether they will be a good mother or not.
I also have this constant headache, I think is caused partially by hormones and partially by the weather as my sister and mom have had one for days now too. I'm also sick with a cold or something - fever, throat hurts, neck hurts, tired all the time - again, partially due to pregnancy and partially sick. Ugh.
I guess that's all for now.
I have school, 5 classes, yes my own fault but some of them require more work than previous classes. I'm not kidding when I say I have an assignment due everyday, Monday through Friday, and sometimes on Saturday and Sunday.
My English class alone began with one assignment each day M-F for the first 2 months, and has since lightened up to only 3 assignments due a week. though I have a 'Reading quiz' which isn't really a quiz because, though I have no idea what it is, it says choose a topic for my final paper before attempting the quiz. that sounds like an essay more than a quiz. I also have a paper due, a quiz, two discussion boards, responses to 3 discussion boards to at least two people with at least 100 words, and a final paper (not the first one stated) due.
My HR class, though with the least amount of assignments, is the one I'm most worried about, as the tests are harder than heck to ace. the average is mid 70's. I, luckily, got an 88 on this last test, though only a 76 on the test before that. After 5 attempts. I have aced all of the assignments due in the class (and finished them early, also), but the tests are the hardest and I have 2 left to complete in order to finish this class.
My two Business Management classes aren't that hard - I plan on finishing all but the last project (evaluation) in my co-op class this week, and my other business class just irritates me because of the length of the assignments. I'm not kidding when I say my 'homework' is normally 6 or 7 (typed) pages, single spaced. sure, we don't have a test - but I would rather have a test over every chapter in the book than the homework we have over every chapter.
My drama class isn't that bad, and I have a 93 in it right now, but the assignments aren't posted until 3 or 4 days in advance, which I hate. If I have an easy (easier?) class, I like to work a little ahead so I'm not so bogged down with assignments in every class on the same day. I can take out one or two assignments early so I only have one or two a day.
Also, I'm really nervous about the baby. Don't get me wrong, I love her and want her and can't wait until she's here, but I was thinking of how much stuff I have to accomplish and do before she gets here. Our apartment is tiny (500sqft) and I don't know where I'm going to stash all my baby shower stuff since we only move two weeks before my due date! Plus I need to tour hospitals, find a new OBGYN (I don't like my current one at all), decide on room layout, get crib bedding, crib, all that stuff, etc, decide if I'll breastfeed or formula feed, decide if I need to apply for WIC or not (probably), train the dog not to jump on me, train the cat to stay out of the bassinet, ETC! I am swamped. Plus, all the irrational fears first time moms have over whether they will be a good mother or not.
I also have this constant headache, I think is caused partially by hormones and partially by the weather as my sister and mom have had one for days now too. I'm also sick with a cold or something - fever, throat hurts, neck hurts, tired all the time - again, partially due to pregnancy and partially sick. Ugh.
I guess that's all for now.
Labels: baby, school, sick, stress, vent
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